Main Barbad Hona Chahti Hoon | मैं बर्बाद होना चाहती हूँ
At nineteen, Malika Amar Shaikh entered matrimony with Namdeo Dhasal, a transformative figure in Marathi poetry and co-founder of the Dalit Panthers. The union collapsed almost as swiftly as it had begun. Her husband proved to be something altogether different from what she'd imagined: neither a reliable partner nor a present father, nor simply a man of integrity. This account traces that fractured relationship whilst exploring something far broader. It's simultaneously a portrait of a woman navigating her identity within a male-dominated sphere, and a chronicle of the Dalit movement's internal contradictions, Mumbai's literary circles, and the activists who shaped them. Originally penned in Marathi, the memoir caused quite a stir upon publication. It sits uncomfortably between the personal and political, between leftist ideology and Dalit activism, between love and revulsion for the man she married. What emerges is more than autobiography; it's a vital historical document that captures the complexities and tensions of a pivotal moment in Indian cultural history, viewed through the lens of one woman's unflinching honesty.
- Author: Malika Amar Shaikh
- Publisher: Rajkamal Prakashan Pvt. Ltd.
- Genre: Plays & Drama
- ISBN: 978-9347265921
- Pages: 192 pages